In the aftermath of the wreck

I'm not sure what to say here. It's 6:15 am on Good Friday. I've been up for a bit, not sleeping, brain running at full bore, understandably.

Firstly, I want to thank Duane for this post, and all his contacts who responded to his call for support for me. What he did was full of heart and the group of people who came out to support a complete stranger was heartwarming, to say the least.

Secondly, I want to let you all know that I am doing okay. I'm going through a process and it's feeling different every day. The day that the breakup happened I was shocked, upset, and eventually angry, all very legitimate feelings. I needed to feel supported, and, as I always do when faced with a challenge in life, I reached out to my blog world to help me cope. The response was inspiring and reminded me of my faith in the good people in the world.

A friend of mine made a comment that was meant to be supportive, but when read by a friend of T's, was taken as an insult. I wasn't ready to come back to write a new post on this yet, but I felt I had to right away address the comment made by "whatevermariver". What she said was true, there are two (actually, many) sides to every story. I do take responsibility for my part in the relationship, and for my role in the breakdown. Name calling and placing blame on one person or the other is not fair, and I ask that you please show respect for everyone who is mentioned on this blog, or who makes fair comment on this blog.

I wanted to use my blog as a place to help me work through this difficult time, but I realize now that maybe this isn't the best place to do that. Maybe it was never a good idea to put this relationship up for all to see. My intentions were always to do it as a way of celebrating that person in my life and what he was adding to my life, not to air out our personal business. I hope he saw that.

I am very sad right now and need some space. For the past few days I've had people filling my head with their thoughts on the situation. Now I would like to take some time to figure out what exactly I do feel, and then move forward from there. I don't know if I am doing this right but I guess I'll figure it out.

Thanks again, everyone, for being there for me. Please do stick close by.