One of my new favourite TV shows is Being Erica on CBC. The main character on the show is a 30ish year old woman working in publishing. She sees a therapist to talk about her regrets. The twist is, her therapist can send her back to the moment of her regret so she can make a positive, informed change in her present. It takes an interesting look at how we blame ourselves for problems way bigger than us and of course how hindsight is 20/20.
2009 was a tumultuous year for me. What if I could go back and change things? What would I do differently? What would I just not do? I don't really believe in regrets. I think they're just things we can't forgive ourselves for. Whenever I feel regret coming on I remind myself that I did the best I could given the resources I had at that moment--time, money, energy, information and wisdom.
To be perfectly honest though, I can't recall another year in my still short life that I have wanted to lock away as much as this one. So today I gave myself some limited magical powers and I undid 2009. You will see that aside from today's post it has been wiped out from record here (well, I'm not one to throw away any of my work so I do still have it, along with your well wishes, tucked away safely for now). Imagine that for Christmas '08 I got a free pass straight to Christmas '09. Everything in between was just a dream.
2 comments:
That's my favorite show. I often wonder what I would do differently in my own life.
But the farther I get (in years) from some of my supposed mistakes, the more I realize they weren't really mistakes after all, just forks in the road. Sure it would be interesting to know what would've happened if I'd taken the other fork, but I'm so happy with where I ended up, I wouldn't risk it.
Maybe this time next year you'll want to resurrect 2009. But maybe not. And that's ok too.
I agree Jill, this past year was definitely a challenge with many struggles.
I wish that I could go back and redo 2009; there are many things that I would change and do differently. However, I did connect with you, and for that I am eternally grateful!
I hope that 2010 is the best year yet!
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