a ghost story

I went to see Zodiac tonight with Amara and Christian. I didn't really know anything about the movie except that Robert Downey Jr. was in it, who I have loved since I first saw him on Ally McBeal.

The movie starts with scenes from The Fourth of July fireworks in San Francisco and I suddenly find myself sitting in front of a ghost. Again.

When I was a kid I was a devoted fan of the show Unsolved Mysteries. The ghost stories were my favourite. I also read a lot about ghosts for a while. I am almost sad to say that I haven't had any experience with the paranormal (I thought I did once, but it was only my imagination after all--boo). I am however, haunted on a regular basis.

Zodiac is based on a true story about the investigators and reporters searching for a serial killer in the San Francisco area. It's a captivating case for the characters who cannot let go of the mystery. I thoroughly enjoyed watching in suspense as they chased leads and theories while trying to put the pieces together and make sense of it all. If you have ever been on a desperate quest for answers you will be able to relate to the situation on some level. I guess if I think of my life as a series of events that eventually lead to my death, then I am a driven investigator trying to figure out how things end.

I believe I am haunted by my own memories and I am not the only one who feels this way. The thing is, the ghosts in our minds haunt us because we won't release them. I personally keep mine in a collection of journals. The only way I can get through my day is by exorcising my demons onto paper. I don't let go of them completely, but at least I can get them out of my head so I can function with some normalcy. All it takes is a song, a name, a place, an image and the ghosts come out of the shadows again. It's not always disturbing though. There are such things as friendly ghosts too.

I suppose the odds are that I am somebody's ghost. Maybe I pop up at the oddest time, maybe I come to mind from time to time when something triggers a memory.

ajillstory is the story of my life. I have this thing about living my life like it's a must read novel. One day, this will all be aghoststory about a person named Jill. Until then, it is up to me to do what I can to make it legendary.

And you know I will ;)