Jillian puts her rose ceremony on hold for a bit

"How's it going, Jill?" someone asked me today while we were waiting for the elevator.

"Good, thanks."

"Good! So have you got anyone new yet in your life?"

I smiled and shook my head. "No, not yet."

"Oh, you'll find someone soon," she said. It was the second person to say that to me in the span of two hours. I was almost apprehensive as the elevator doors parted (it turned out to be empty).

"What about that guy in HR?" she asked me. I told her I knew of no men in HR.

"I'll look into it for you!" she called out after me as I made my way out to the gardens.

Later, Irene, who has dubbed herself my Yenta of Love, came by to tell me that the guy she had picked out for me probably wasn't going to work out. He possibly had a girlfriend and her husband disapproved of the setup, calling the guy his friend, but also a bit of a player.

I smiled at this. "That's okay. No worries," I said.

Tonight Judy was back in town and so I got together at her place with Cindy. There was red wine again and I had flashbacks to the last time we got into the wine at her place. Yikes.

"I have this guy for you," Cindy said to me. "He works for Manitoba Hydro and he did my home evaluation. I don't know if he's single yet, but he was very friendly and personable in a non-flirty way. He has to come back to finish the evaluation so I'll ask him."

Again, I laughed. "There's a cute guy who's on my bus sometimes and he works for Hydro."

"Wouldn't that be funny if it was the same guy? You should ask him his name. People don't approach other people enough."

I just smiled and shrugged and took a sip of my Australian malbec.

Then Judy started. "There's these two tow plane guys in Gimli, I didn't think they were single at first, but now I'm not so sure. I'll investigate."

After Cindy left Judy and I watched TV. She wanted to watch The Bachelorette since A) she hasn't seen TV in weeks, and B) it was the last episode. I have never followed the program but given that Judy was starving for some comfort TV, I didn't mind.

We flipped between that and Myth Busters where they tried, and succeeded, at floating a lead balloon. On the Bachelorette, quirky and cute Canadian Jillian was choosing between Kiptyn and Ed. *SPOILER ALERT!* I was cheering for Kiptyn, but Jill picked Ed instead. I wanted to throw my socks at the TV. Kiptyn was cuter and Ed had already left her once for work reasons. However, they did seem quite enamoured with one another so yay them.

Judy has this awesome white, bubble-knit linen blanket that I was cozied up with on the couch. There was a breeze coming in from the front windows and the sun was about half an hour from setting.

It's been a while since I've felt like this. I've struggled so much to get back to this place, this comfort. In the last I don't know how many years I've always had some kind of boy project lined up. I've always had someone in my back pocket to at least dream about. Right now, I've got nothing. Nadda. My dream is faceless. I know my friends all mean well with trying to line someone up for me right now, but I feel pretty good right here with just me. They keep telling me soon but I don't know what that means and I'm really not even concerned. I know you probably doubt me on that. I wonder too if it's just a temporary feeling. However, I've got some other things I want to focus on right now that I know would be impossible with the distraction of a guy. I guess I finally want what I've been given, and that's a peaceful easy feeling.

'Cause I've got a peaceful easy feeling and I know you won't let me down
'Cause I'm already standing on the ground

--The Eagles, Peaceful Easy Feeling