Okay so yesterday I had an appointment at the St. B Hospital again, this time for an echocardiogram. An echo-what? I know, that's what I said. My doctor was sending me for the test to help rule out heart problems in relation to that fainting spell I had last summer. When I got the call last week about the appointment I couldn't remember if my doctor had said he was going to set me up for this test along with the Holter monitor test (which I did in January, remember, suicide bomber?) or if this was some kind of bonus test that I was getting now because of something that showed up on the Holter results. It made me nervous.
I Googled Echocardiogram and learned that it is is a test that uses sound waves to create a moving picture of the heart. The test can detect things like abnormal heart valves, damage to the heart, infection in the sac around the heart, congenital heart disease...need I go on or are you freaking out as much as I am?
I called my mom to tell her about the upcoming appointment. Her optimistic words of support?
"Maybe you just have a heart murmur or something. You know Grandma has a heart murmur and look how good she is."
How about maybe I don't have a single freakin thing wrong with me? I remember waaaay back last summer when I had the fainting spell that the paramedics and my doctor said it was probably all just due to a low tolerance for pain and I vehemently disagreed because I, Jillian, can take all sorts of pain. I may whine and cry about it, but it has to be super bad before I'll take a single Advil. Now, facing another test to check out my heart, i.e., the very thing keeping me walking and talking and tripping over myself in Zumba class, I am fully ready to accept a diagnosis of "low tolerance for pain" just to put the whole mess behind me.
I had one of the first appointments of the day. Having been to the hospital once before now for a test I figured I knew where to go to check in. No, I was wrong. Apparently they have numerous places to check in. Who thinks these things through? Hospitals are big and kind of scary because you're not often there on good terms. If I were designing the place I'd have a big check in desk right at the front, that is staffed at least 7:00 am to 5:30 pm with happy, smiley, warm people. You'd give them your name, they'd enter you into a computer and then offer a friendly happy volunteer to walk you to whichever department you need to get to. where you can then complete the check in process.
Anyway, I was redirected to the correct reception desk in the Heart Sciences area. I was told to take an elevator. Ooooh, she's going for an echocardiogram, better not send her to the stairs, she might have a bad heart. I kept my eye out for a staircase but couldn't see one so I reluctantly took the stupidly slow elevator. I sincerely hope they don't use that thing for emergencies. All the heart research in the world ain't gonna help if every heart attack victim has to wait for an elevator.
When I got up to the heart department--which has things like pacemakers and information on the effects of smoking hanging on the wall--I was the second person in line to check in. Ahead of me was a rather large woman who used a wheeling-walker thing and had laboured breathing. Hm. I thought to myself, one of us has a heart problem. Please don't let this be the picture perfect public serivice announcement with a surprise twist ending.
When it was my turn to speak to the clerk at the desk I gave her my name. She looked on her screen.
"Jillian Shannon?"
"Yes."
"Oh! Jillian and Shannon are the names of my daughters," she smiled. She confirmed with me my phone number and address, even asked my religion. Next she asked for my emergency contact person and then she said, "oh wait, I have it here, oh my goodness, your mom's name is Bev, that's my name."
Cute, Universe. Cute. Way to play the name game. Is this supposed to calm my nerves? Can we just get this over with please so I can get on with living a very normal and healthy life?
A few minutes later I went in for the test and the cardiologist notices my name and tells me, "that's my daughter's middle name. Her first name is Claire." So then I told her the story about the woman at the front desk and then she said,"well I guess you were just meant to be here today." Meant to be at the hospital is not really what a supposedly young and healthy woman wants to hear while she is getting her heart checked out, but sure, I suppose the coincidences were somewhat entertaining. Or weird. One of those.
So the echocardiogram itself is essentially an ultrasound on your chest. There's a wand and goo and a fuzzy picture in a pie shaped area on the screen. I didn't really watch. Once in a while she would turn on the sound and I'd hear my heart but this, for me, was not all amazing like it is when a woman hears her baby's heart beat in the womb. Mostly I was sitting there wondering, is that supposed to sound like that? I suppose pregnant ladies get to hear things like, "your baby's heart is looking and sounding very good!" I was just laying there feeling smothered by my own name, trying to breath normally so my heart wouldn't race, hoping that I was normal and healthy and wondering what time I would be able to get into work at.
The test took 20 minutes or so. I found my way out of the hospital, paid for parking, fought with morning rush hour traffic to get home only to miss the next bus out by 30 seconds. I decided to walk in the drizzle. I sped past a senior couple and a daycare group. I had my iPod on and tried to get lost in a favourite song.
I don't want to have a heart problem. I don't want to have coincidence keeping me company at a hospital appointment. I don't want to get old and do all this stuff without someone holding my hand. I don't want to but I am. I don't know about my heart, but my spirit has strength, and of the two I think that's the harder one to apply medicine to if it needs repair.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Men at Work talking about the land of Oz
On Tuesday night a travel services company hosted an information night on visiting Australia and New Zealand. The particular tour company they were featuring that night specialized in packages for the 18 to 35-year-old group. The event was being held at a popular downtown watering hole.
Travel.
18 to 35-year-olds.
Fun location.
Sounds like an opportunity to learn more about something I have an interest in and possibly meet other people in my age group, possibly of the guy-variety who also share this interest. Can you picture the twinkle in my eyes?
I told Lisa about it and she said she'd love to go since she had always dreamed of going to Australia. I didn't know that about her. I, honestly, didn't have any deep yearning to see the place. I also am having a hard time right now imagining a time when I will have $2000 or so to jet off across to the other side of the world for fun, but as I noted, my motives for attending the event were more social. Whenever someone writes into Miss Lonelyhearts complaining that they just can't meet people, she always tells them to join things, volunteer, get out there. Well this is me, out there. You know I'm out there, right? I'm a joiner. I try things all the time. I do always have some kind of fun.
Miss Lonelyhearts, I'm calling bullshit on this strategy. Only girls showed up to the event. There were seven of us. We outnumbered the travel staff by just one.
The presentation was good. It actually made joining a tour sound like fun. You fly yourself to the destination, meet up with your group and spend the next three to 16 days travelling and doing excursions with them. You get a tour bus, nice looking accommodations, nightly entertainment and a tonne of choices in activities like surfing, skydiving, sailing, rolling down a hill in an inflated ball. Hey, this was starting to sound like something worth saving up for.
After the tour company rep gave her presentation one of the guys from the travel services company who sponsored the event got up to speak. That's right, I said one of the guys. There were two of them. One was geeky cute but made mention of a girlfriend. The other one (the one who got up to speak) was tall, dark and handsome. I don't know his marital status, never did find out, but he helped a great deal to turn the social aspect of the evening right around.
After the presentation was done, TD&H drew names for door prizes. Guess who was the last name called? Yup. I got the best prize of all--a big fat guide book of Australia.
The others got up and left once the speaking was done. Lisa had just turned to me and said, "well...?" when the geeky-cute girlfriended guy came by and asked us about our travel plans. We explained to him that we didn't really have plans yet, that we were just starting to investigate our options. He moved on and then TD&H came by to chat with us. He gave Lisa the tote bag that he has pulled the names out of and asked us about our travel plans. He talked. A lot. Which was completely fine by me. I tried to be very encouraging of this by nodding, asking questions, answering his questions, although he didn't need much encouragement so mostly I just got to sit there and enjoy studying him. He had two earrings in his left ear and looked like he had spent the last 10 years or so playing football. I'll bet he had a motorcycle.
So the night was a win. I got a free book and a TD&H personal resource should I ever wish to explore The Down Under.
Travel.
18 to 35-year-olds.
Fun location.
Sounds like an opportunity to learn more about something I have an interest in and possibly meet other people in my age group, possibly of the guy-variety who also share this interest. Can you picture the twinkle in my eyes?
I told Lisa about it and she said she'd love to go since she had always dreamed of going to Australia. I didn't know that about her. I, honestly, didn't have any deep yearning to see the place. I also am having a hard time right now imagining a time when I will have $2000 or so to jet off across to the other side of the world for fun, but as I noted, my motives for attending the event were more social. Whenever someone writes into Miss Lonelyhearts complaining that they just can't meet people, she always tells them to join things, volunteer, get out there. Well this is me, out there. You know I'm out there, right? I'm a joiner. I try things all the time. I do always have some kind of fun.
Miss Lonelyhearts, I'm calling bullshit on this strategy. Only girls showed up to the event. There were seven of us. We outnumbered the travel staff by just one.
The presentation was good. It actually made joining a tour sound like fun. You fly yourself to the destination, meet up with your group and spend the next three to 16 days travelling and doing excursions with them. You get a tour bus, nice looking accommodations, nightly entertainment and a tonne of choices in activities like surfing, skydiving, sailing, rolling down a hill in an inflated ball. Hey, this was starting to sound like something worth saving up for.
After the tour company rep gave her presentation one of the guys from the travel services company who sponsored the event got up to speak. That's right, I said one of the guys. There were two of them. One was geeky cute but made mention of a girlfriend. The other one (the one who got up to speak) was tall, dark and handsome. I don't know his marital status, never did find out, but he helped a great deal to turn the social aspect of the evening right around.
After the presentation was done, TD&H drew names for door prizes. Guess who was the last name called? Yup. I got the best prize of all--a big fat guide book of Australia.
The others got up and left once the speaking was done. Lisa had just turned to me and said, "well...?" when the geeky-cute girlfriended guy came by and asked us about our travel plans. We explained to him that we didn't really have plans yet, that we were just starting to investigate our options. He moved on and then TD&H came by to chat with us. He gave Lisa the tote bag that he has pulled the names out of and asked us about our travel plans. He talked. A lot. Which was completely fine by me. I tried to be very encouraging of this by nodding, asking questions, answering his questions, although he didn't need much encouragement so mostly I just got to sit there and enjoy studying him. He had two earrings in his left ear and looked like he had spent the last 10 years or so playing football. I'll bet he had a motorcycle.
So the night was a win. I got a free book and a TD&H personal resource should I ever wish to explore The Down Under.
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
A sucker is born every minute but at least she has good skin
So Lisa's been doing some fundraising for her upcoming trip to Uganda and last night she hosted a party for a certain cosmetics and healthy lifestyle company. Let's call the company BonneAr and call me dyslexic because I don't want to attract any unwanted attention here. I mean good Lord, I already get enough people landing here looking for the lyrics to a imitation cheese product, sleeping accommodations in a truck bed and stories about extramarital affairs. Everyday. I see the stats.
Unfortunately, this event came during the first of a two month period in which I am attempting to seriously cut back on my spending. Last month was a tough one with three mortgage payments, driver's licence renewal and the annual purchase of my contact lenses. On top of that I also splurged on the ticket to the wine show, the new dress for the wine show and several lunches and dinners out. Normally I would not have blinked at dropping $35 for a fancy moisturizer, especially in the name of supporting a friend, but during my period of reduced spending I've decided to put the credit card on ice and give myself a strict cash-only limit. I have never carried a balance on my credit card, but going cash only makes me more conscious of my spending.
I figured my best bet would be to buy something for my mom, since her birthday is coming up next month, but I could envision the look on her face when I would present her with a tiny box of $65 eye cream. The look would say, "oh Jillian, thank you, you dear, sweet kapusta head, but I really would have preferred lunch to wrinkle cream." (FYI Mom, you're not getting European wrinkle cream for your b-day.)
So instead I flipped through the catalog to find a product for myself. Ugh. No I do not need another eye shadow, lip gloss or fancy powder even though I do love these things. Last week though I used my willpower to deny myself a $10 lip gloss from Avon and I was so proud! I sampled the lotions the rep had brought. They made the backs of my hands feel so silky. Oh the things I could do if only I had silky feeling hands! I bet with one silky handshake I could land a super dream job and a handsome prince of man.
Once all the guests had arrived the sales rep took a few minutes to introduce us to the products and the company that, just recently, has awarded her a white Mercedes. As I sat there and listened to her story I actually thought she was a very honest, sweet, lovely person who had found the perfect employment solution for her and her family. And on top of it all she was going to give Lisa all her profits from the sales made during the party--35% of the retail price of every item. And this company did indeed sound very worthy of my support--environmentally friendly, vegan friendly and sensitive skin friendly. I kind of fell for it. I wanted so very much to give it my cash. I mean, because of BonneAr, this woman was able to become a stay-at-home mom and her husband quit a job he hated and took a lesser-paying but more satisfying one, plus it was helping Lisa go to Africa and giving me happy skin.
But that darn budget made me search for the most reasonable and sensible item--an $18 liniment cream that does its best to not smell like old-lady, but, let's face it, still does. Menthol is so alluring, right guys? Whatever. Sometimes I hurt after I come back from the gym. Sometimes I hurt because I don't go to the gym, and sometimes I am in terrible pain due to what I affectionately call my old lady hip (I think it has something to do with a weak hip flexor). After taxes and a dollar for shipping the damages came in at $25.52. Of that Lisa gets seven dollars and some change. With the numbers on the page and the physical cash coming out of my wallet I frowned. Wouldn't it have really been better to just give Lisa 25 bucks? Now I feel dumb. I came to support my BFF but I gave more to the sales rep and the slick multi-level marketing company. And I spent the equivalent of a week's worth of groceries on old lady cream. Incidentally, I slept funny on my shoulder last night and had crazy weird dreams (maybe it was all the aromatherapy junk seeping into my skin) and now I have this stupid pain in my neck. If you think I sound old, wait till I tell you about tomorrow's adventures.
Unfortunately, this event came during the first of a two month period in which I am attempting to seriously cut back on my spending. Last month was a tough one with three mortgage payments, driver's licence renewal and the annual purchase of my contact lenses. On top of that I also splurged on the ticket to the wine show, the new dress for the wine show and several lunches and dinners out. Normally I would not have blinked at dropping $35 for a fancy moisturizer, especially in the name of supporting a friend, but during my period of reduced spending I've decided to put the credit card on ice and give myself a strict cash-only limit. I have never carried a balance on my credit card, but going cash only makes me more conscious of my spending.
I figured my best bet would be to buy something for my mom, since her birthday is coming up next month, but I could envision the look on her face when I would present her with a tiny box of $65 eye cream. The look would say, "oh Jillian, thank you, you dear, sweet kapusta head, but I really would have preferred lunch to wrinkle cream." (FYI Mom, you're not getting European wrinkle cream for your b-day.)
So instead I flipped through the catalog to find a product for myself. Ugh. No I do not need another eye shadow, lip gloss or fancy powder even though I do love these things. Last week though I used my willpower to deny myself a $10 lip gloss from Avon and I was so proud! I sampled the lotions the rep had brought. They made the backs of my hands feel so silky. Oh the things I could do if only I had silky feeling hands! I bet with one silky handshake I could land a super dream job and a handsome prince of man.
Once all the guests had arrived the sales rep took a few minutes to introduce us to the products and the company that, just recently, has awarded her a white Mercedes. As I sat there and listened to her story I actually thought she was a very honest, sweet, lovely person who had found the perfect employment solution for her and her family. And on top of it all she was going to give Lisa all her profits from the sales made during the party--35% of the retail price of every item. And this company did indeed sound very worthy of my support--environmentally friendly, vegan friendly and sensitive skin friendly. I kind of fell for it. I wanted so very much to give it my cash. I mean, because of BonneAr, this woman was able to become a stay-at-home mom and her husband quit a job he hated and took a lesser-paying but more satisfying one, plus it was helping Lisa go to Africa and giving me happy skin.
But that darn budget made me search for the most reasonable and sensible item--an $18 liniment cream that does its best to not smell like old-lady, but, let's face it, still does. Menthol is so alluring, right guys? Whatever. Sometimes I hurt after I come back from the gym. Sometimes I hurt because I don't go to the gym, and sometimes I am in terrible pain due to what I affectionately call my old lady hip (I think it has something to do with a weak hip flexor). After taxes and a dollar for shipping the damages came in at $25.52. Of that Lisa gets seven dollars and some change. With the numbers on the page and the physical cash coming out of my wallet I frowned. Wouldn't it have really been better to just give Lisa 25 bucks? Now I feel dumb. I came to support my BFF but I gave more to the sales rep and the slick multi-level marketing company. And I spent the equivalent of a week's worth of groceries on old lady cream. Incidentally, I slept funny on my shoulder last night and had crazy weird dreams (maybe it was all the aromatherapy junk seeping into my skin) and now I have this stupid pain in my neck. If you think I sound old, wait till I tell you about tomorrow's adventures.
Sunday, June 06, 2010
28.5 years of service with Humanity
Last weekend after my house sprung a leak my dad came over with his ShopVac and sucked up the puddle in my basement. He took a section of paneling off the wall and didn't find rotting wood or moldy insulation. Mike Holmes wouldn't have been satisfied but we decided that the puddle was likely not to be seen again for another 50 years.
I packed up all my books and took them to my parents' where my mom let them bake in the sun on the deck for a day. Dry basement, dry books, everything is as it was again, although for a while there I still got pretty nervous whenever rain was in the forecast.
I am 28.5 years old (oh boo, I missed my half birthday yesterday) and to date I've:
During my research I also found this interesting: according to Environment Canada, Winnipeg is the coldest city in the world with a population of over 600,000 (and don't forget, the world's Slurpee capital). We Winnipeggers like a good challenge. Not just anyone can live here, y'know.
Last Monday I had an important meeting I wanted to look extra stylish for. I chose my outfit carefully and the shoes to match. As on most days, I packed those shoes in my bag and walked out of my house in shoes more appropriate for riding the bus. When I got to work I pulled out my shoes only to find that I had packed two different shoes for the right foot. I had a spare pair of neutral coloured shoes in my desk drawer (a good fashionista is always prepared). They worked, but it just wasn't the same. So I called my mom, who was going over to my house anyway to check on the basement, and asked her if she would bring me my other shoe. Sometime around 10:30 I met her in the parking lot and she handed to me a single shoe: my left black heel with white top-stitching. In a span of four days I had my dad ShopVac-ing my basement and my mom delivering me a shoe. If I am not a Disney Princess I don't know who is. Is there really a Prince C. who will fix my castle and deliver me my shoe upon request? I don't know, but I do have some wonderful people in my life who already do this. Only thing is, I think they want to retire soon. It's been 28 years already and they'd like to go travelling.
I am using this weekend to be mostly lazy. Last week was a bit stressful and this week coming up is stupendously busy. Hopefully it will be bloggable when I have a moment to spare again.
I packed up all my books and took them to my parents' where my mom let them bake in the sun on the deck for a day. Dry basement, dry books, everything is as it was again, although for a while there I still got pretty nervous whenever rain was in the forecast.
I am 28.5 years old (oh boo, I missed my half birthday yesterday) and to date I've:
- had my one and only snow day off from school due to the '97 Blizzard of the Century
- missed classes again to help sand bag during the '97 Flood of the Century
- waited for a bus during the coldest temperatures in 25 years ( −41.7 °C [−43 °F] on February 5, 2007)
- sweat it out during the hottest temperatures in 25 years (38.7 °C [102 °F] on August 6, 1988 and again on August 1, 1989. The highest humidex reading was 48 on July 25, 2007, although just 64 km [40 mi] southwest of the city, the town of Carman, Manitoba broke Canada's all time humidex record, with a high of 53)
- been 40km west of the worst tornado ever recorded in Canada (F5 in Elie, MB on June 22, 2007)
During my research I also found this interesting: according to Environment Canada, Winnipeg is the coldest city in the world with a population of over 600,000 (and don't forget, the world's Slurpee capital). We Winnipeggers like a good challenge. Not just anyone can live here, y'know.
Last Monday I had an important meeting I wanted to look extra stylish for. I chose my outfit carefully and the shoes to match. As on most days, I packed those shoes in my bag and walked out of my house in shoes more appropriate for riding the bus. When I got to work I pulled out my shoes only to find that I had packed two different shoes for the right foot. I had a spare pair of neutral coloured shoes in my desk drawer (a good fashionista is always prepared). They worked, but it just wasn't the same. So I called my mom, who was going over to my house anyway to check on the basement, and asked her if she would bring me my other shoe. Sometime around 10:30 I met her in the parking lot and she handed to me a single shoe: my left black heel with white top-stitching. In a span of four days I had my dad ShopVac-ing my basement and my mom delivering me a shoe. If I am not a Disney Princess I don't know who is. Is there really a Prince C. who will fix my castle and deliver me my shoe upon request? I don't know, but I do have some wonderful people in my life who already do this. Only thing is, I think they want to retire soon. It's been 28 years already and they'd like to go travelling.
I am using this weekend to be mostly lazy. Last week was a bit stressful and this week coming up is stupendously busy. Hopefully it will be bloggable when I have a moment to spare again.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Come Hell or High Water
Someone told me long ago: There's a calm before the stormMother Nature is having her way with my house. On Wednesday I went down to the basement and discovered a dead bumble bee in the middle of the floor being masticated by red ants. The bee was dead so the hows and whys of it are of no matter now. The ants however, are a problem, although not as much of a problem as the large puddle I came home to on Saturday night.
I know
and it's been comin' for sometime.
When it's over
so they say
it'll rain a sunny day
--CCR Have you Ever Seen the Rain
From the CBC.ca website
Homeowners, public works crews and emergency responders in southern Manitoba are beginning a major cleanup after severe thunderstorms pounded the region over the weekend.
Environment Canada said 53 millimetres of rain fell on Winnipeg on Saturday and several major streets remain closed because of flooding.
The towns of Portage la Prairie and Emerson each recorded record amounts of rainfall, a spokesperson for the weather agency said. Emerson has declared a state of emergency because of the damage done to property in the community.
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My friend George noted on his Facebook status that he felt "feels 10 years younger...because for the first time in 10 years, he has to bail out his fricking basement". Me, I felt 10 years older for being a homeowner who had returned to find that her house needed a diaper. I got to work with my mop, pushing the water into the storm drain. I spent an hour on the clean up getting it mostly dry before deciding I could go to bed at midnight.
I had a lousy sleep full of weird dreams. At four I was awake and could hear the rain again. I decided to check downstairs. The puddle was back. Feeling helpless, I went back to bed and waited until it was a decent hour to phone my dad.
Springtime in Winnipeg didn't used to mean monsoon season. Winnipeg has suffered some depressing and wet summers the past two years but I think we thought we were getting back to the sunny side of things this year. Climate change. Yes, I'm a believer. I've been here long enough to know that this isn't the weather I grew up with. This is something different. Is it the product of the human lifestyle or just a cycle in nature, I don't know, but I have to wonder if I'm seeing the beginnings of a new Atlantis.
My dad came over in the morning with his ShopVac and sucked up the water. He got about 15 gallons of water and it continued to seep in. The ground is just so saturated and the sewers so full that the water has nowhere to go but old basements. Fortunately my basement is just a storage space for me although I did have a lot of books in cardboard boxes that will need to be aired out.
Dad burnt out the ShopVac. The sun and blue sky are back out now although the forecast is calling for more precipitation tonight and tomorrow. Good thing I have that canoe.
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